in regards to

in regards to my future wife.




I love you



.gabriel.

words are words

words are confusing.

they can be deceitful, or the root of honesty.

but how do we know when they're what?

trust.

it comes down to trust.

...i wish everyone told the truth.

someone

who makes me smile, laugh, want to be open, someone i can be myself around. someone i want to talk to when i'm upset, someone who i'm so comfortable with...we can sit in silence and still have an amazing time.
that someone is who i want...

.gabriel.

Cup

half empty or half full? depends on if you just filled it, or took a drink...

for christi, forever ago.

i am who i am.


but who is that?

lately i've been trying to figure out who i am and what i want. i think i've got the first part pretty figured out, but as for what i want...no one knows less than me.

the title of this blog is due to christi saying she enjoys my writing style. which got me thinking why?

so my attempt at what i want. i want to honest, like in writing. artistic, like in art. i want to be healthy, i want to be happy, i want to be like Christ. i want what God wants for me.

the problem is, i dont always get that. and i don't always know who i am.

so what do i do about that?


.gabriel.

homeschool

as some of you may know, if you ever read this, i was public schooled until halfway throught ninth grade. i am now homeschooled. i enjoy homeschool very much for somethings.but i miss people. i see my friends twice a week. my best friend and i barely get to hang out. and when we do, theres usually lots of people around and its very impersonal. so i cant wait for college next year. and a license in a month. and social interaction soon.


.gabriel.

butterfly in a hurricane

people. and object of research since Adam tried to figure out eve. I, like a butterfly, have gone completely out my league. getting caught in a hurricane of emotions, being tossed back and forth, up and down and around until I have lost all sense of direction. all while trying to figure out people.


but people much smarter than me have tried this and, they too failed. I imagine feeling the same sensation that I recently have.


so my point. why should I, a fifteen year old boy, be able to figure out humans when even those incredible minds before me have not been able to.

I shouldn't.

so I think I'll stop trying so hard...


and let my savior lead me.

*sigh*

.gabriel.