homeschool

as some of you may know, if you ever read this, i was public schooled until halfway throught ninth grade. i am now homeschooled. i enjoy homeschool very much for somethings.but i miss people. i see my friends twice a week. my best friend and i barely get to hang out. and when we do, theres usually lots of people around and its very impersonal. so i cant wait for college next year. and a license in a month. and social interaction soon.


.gabriel.

butterfly in a hurricane

people. and object of research since Adam tried to figure out eve. I, like a butterfly, have gone completely out my league. getting caught in a hurricane of emotions, being tossed back and forth, up and down and around until I have lost all sense of direction. all while trying to figure out people.


but people much smarter than me have tried this and, they too failed. I imagine feeling the same sensation that I recently have.


so my point. why should I, a fifteen year old boy, be able to figure out humans when even those incredible minds before me have not been able to.

I shouldn't.

so I think I'll stop trying so hard...


and let my savior lead me.

*sigh*

.gabriel.

just so you know

THE FINE LINE
between to eternals


to clarify, to me this is the difference between a life trusting in Christ, and a life blinded by lies of the world. both lead to eternals, life and death.
end
.gabriel.

movies

i can't help but laugh at myself when i watch movies over and over again, and still wish for things to happen even when i know the outcome. i followed this thought and realized the reason i love these movies and why i watch them over and over again. and that is, its the opposite of life. in life you wish for outcomes and know whats happening. you have no control. these movies give a false sence of control that i just love and i thought it was funny how my mind works like that. and how thankful i am that i don't need to be in control, i have the Lord. and i'm strangely comfortable with that. so i just thought i'd share.

.gabriel.